hehehehehehe, he has got a point...People, watch this...

is Danish as far as I can remember. And yes, they are known for being particularly good at enjoying life in Denmark.

I sometimes dream that I sing..these are the most amazing dreams that I have..They are beyond lucid..They have texture, taste, sound, they vibrate...

This morning I dreamt that I sang this song for a dear friend..
This was one of the first songs that I ever sang in public..And it has been with me ever since..Even though it seems easy to sing, it is actually quite hard to get a hold of..I would love to be able to sing it in portugese..Such a cool language..Sound so sweet when Jobim sings the first verse..

I think I need to get a hold of some musicians very soon, I feel something is brewing..

Q: Yes, then how to be happy?

A: "Demonstrate a very sincere wish to know God and the truth, do as much as possible to connect with a higher power in a direct experience. Then connect the personal wish with the power of the supreme will, develop the awareness of what that supreme power wants to create through the soul, and just do it. This is happiness!" (Jeffrey Wolf Green)

Orrrrrhh...That totally rocks :)

How sweet is this song on a scale from one to ten? Threehundred you say? But there is not threehundred....:)P

Quite ironic "when I am 64", John died and prevented Yoko from ever smiling again, and Linda died, and then Paul married the other girl with one leg, and all hell broke loose....

Life...

..Some make it till 64 and still laugh at eachothers jokes...

This video is kind of strange, I have no idea what Julian Lennon does in it, it looks very funny  though... But  just to enjoy the song, I wouldn't watch it,  just listen to the sweet voices of John and Paul and that fantastic clarinet..I love clarinets...Such a soft, gentle and humorous sound..

This particular clarinet makes me smile..

The healing continues, my whole soul and being is stirred by the emotions that surface..There is a certain feeling that comes and goes in me, and that is loneliness..I have been the outsider all my life, and now, more than any other  time in my life, this feeling has a tendency to come to me, mostly because the triggers are everywhere and I am a single mother with two small children...I give a lot..Now I feel I need  to receive something again..

I was out all day yesterday, and there where people everywhere..I would be much happier on the countryside, with the birds and the skies, and not be reminded of those who always group up and hang around with their peeps...I have some friends in this life, offcourse, but most of the time,I am alone..And I don't mind being alone, but loneliness is when you feel that you have nothing for yourself..All the way, my inner layer, is solitude...Not just only I walk around in dimensions people rarely,  if ever visit, my family, my father and my mother that is, lives  in another town..My only brother is dead...I have no workcolleagues, the other families in this area are their own small community, this community is not reflecting my values at all...I guess I mostly long for a spiritual reflection in my life, someone who agrees with me..hehe..I don't know..What I know is that chiron is stirring my wound, and that I again have a chance to step out of it and into life again..Ground, and accept life as it is...I am not alone I keep telling myself, but in many ways,  I am...And I need to accept that...I find most people boring,  I don't know if they make themselves boring, or if they are..And it is okey, I am probarly boring or incomprehensible  to most anyway....I never ment to be so peculiar..I came to this planet in love, and still, despite the ignorance , I still am myself.....I toss myself out into the dance again and again, working towards the light , even  it it means I have to listen to the boring people..I don't think it is a waste of time,  I see them, I have always been good at seeing people as they are on a deeper level, and  that is not boring..What they say is boring, they true selves are never boring..But then again, I could never live with one of them, I would die..I need an oasis to come home to...A place where I can just be who I am, as weird as I am, and be understood...

I am not trying to fight the world as it is..People are ok...Most of them are sweet and nice and all, I am not feeling better nor worse than anyone..But I do feel slightly different..This is an inherited syndrom..My father always sais:"I am born in the  wrong century" (meaning he should have been born in this current one)

The wound is open today..And what to do?...I accept it...It is okey, there is nothing to do..I cannot fake, and say it isn't so..It is..Some days..And God might have something goody up his sleeve..Who knows...I let go...So that I once again can receive...

Yup...This day allready feels better..It is an illusion, but man, it is surely a cunning one..Almost gets me everytime..

So good luck working with your own negative projections...They are here to be deflated...

Amen.,.