Just what I needed..

Some evenings it all flows easily..
other times, I have to get into the mood..
Meditation is like sex for me..I get out of mode and suddenly it all seems strange and faraway..
Then I have to work up the energy again..And meditation is precious. So strange..Nothing is happening and so much is happening after all---all the changes that we can invoke on so many levels with a simple meditative practise..I have always held on to the thought that meditating while living is what is what takes us where we long, but I sometimes have to just sit still as well...I have always been a runner..One that never simply does nothing..As so many in this world..So just sitting carries enormous challenge.

That is what I long to do now, yet my mind is running..It is about to be shut off..I have decided..
I am having sex with the ultimate..